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Day By Day© by Chris Muir.

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Saturday, April 30, 2005

remember your first dive?

to steal a line from a book i'm reading, "everyone remembers their first time. the first kiss, the first sweaty groping in the back seat of the car," that sort of thing. for submariners, their indelibly recorded first memory on the boats would be their first dive.

i was a nuke machinist mate, and had gone to engineering lab tech school after qualifying at prototype. for the uninitiated, what that means is i had to prove to the navy i could learn and operate a nuclear power plant, before they would let me loose on the fleet, with one of their multi-gazillion dollar vessels. i suppose they figured that if the trainees that cycled through prototype really really messed things up, it was way the hell out in the idaho desert, and nobody would notice when they brought in the big plows, and covered the area with 20 feet of fill. so i spent 2 years in the navy, without ever stepping onboard a naval vessel as a crew member, unless you count the 6 days i spent on the Sperry between prototype and the boat.

2 years in the naval nuclear power pipeline, learning everything from what kind of fibers make the best packing glands for high pressure steam valves, to what the crystalline phase transformation from face centered cubic to body center cubic in stainless steel meant, and why i cared. i was subjected to scrutiny, harassment, pressure, and whatever other types of torture you can do without physically touching a human. it was all part of the program. if you can't take the pressure of studying for a test, just how much pressure will you take when the valve bonnet on that high pressure air valve carries away right next to your head. nothing dramatic, nothing physical, other than the grinding hours of studying and testing and studying and qualifying and studying and.... i'm sure the navy SEALs would all cry crocodile tears "oh boohoo, did widdle nookie pooh have to study in a clean well lit carrel, with fresh coffee?" nah, it was just the constant psychological pressure to perform, constant for two years. will he make it? i was surprised at just how many didn't, that couldn't take the never ending demands for perfection.

so i'd been tested by the navy. nothing overt, nothing you could put your finger on, but by the time a nuke enlisted made it to a submarine, he'd already shown the navy he had a much better than even chance of handling the pressures of living and working onboard a nuclear submarine. we were smart, well trained, and as full of ourselves as any young men in the military can be, by the time we were sent out of the fold into the wild world of "the fleet".

you have to actually go into a submarine, and look around to get the impact of what a maze of gear it is. words are a poor substitute for experience. i met my boat in alameda, as she was offloading torpedoes prior to returning to her home port at mare island. i'd been sitting at squadron for a couple of weeks, typing security clearance paperwork for another boat in the detachment. i might have been a nuke, but i was also a warm body that knew a little about typing, and that's all that counted to the master chief. so i typed and learned more about the guys on that boat than their mothers knew. or what they wanted their mothers to know.

walking onboard my boat for the first time filled me with the most amazing sense of wonder. well, wondering how the hell i'm going to learn all these pipes and valves and machines, actually. the boat had a stink that can't be described other than using brownie's "fart in an oilcan", one of his favorite phrases.

i got the chance to get some time on the boat before getting underway for real. we did an evolution requiring drydocking the boat, and the very first day in drydock, i watched a shipyard worker slip on the seaslime along the hull as he was setting up the scaffolding. watched him twist and claw at the hull as he fell the 40 or so feet into the basin, crumbling like a rag doll on the piled gear staged on the dock floor. i was the topside phonetalker, and believe me when i say i did not approach the lifelines any closer than necessary.

3 1/2 weeks after reporting on board, the seawolf set sail for points unknown. when leaving from the san francisco bay area, specifically mare island, you sail down the mare island channel, into san pablo bay, under the richmond-san rafael bridge, and to alameda for weapons. we were not allowed to load at mare island. don't know why, didn't care. it meant a break before actually heading out to sea. once the weapon loadout was done, it was past alcatraz island, under the golden gate bridge, along the marin headlands, through the potato patch, past the farallon islands to the 100 fathom curve. during the transit, i heard "RIG SHIP FOR DIVE".

the crew was checking the systems were lined up for dive, and then an officer walked through the compartment reperforming the checks. it was a ritualistic dance, coordinated to insure all the systems and components the boat needed to get back to the surface were working, and would work if needed. it also checked to see if the systems were lined up to allow the boat to dive. ballast tank valves were cycled, backup valves run in and out, so much to do and check i was afraid someone would miss a step. i knew i'd never learn all that stuff, and marveled at the ease the watchstanders had in finding and checking everything off. even if they had the compartment bill in hand, it still amazed me. oh please, oh please, don't mess anything up. pleeeeeeze. AOOOGGGAAA AOOOOGA DIVE DIVE

nothing happens. well, that's not true. you hear what sounds like air escaping the ballast tanks (not that you know what the sound is, you just hear it). and nothing. then, the deck starts to tilt forward a little bit, and the constant side to side rocking since leaving the golden gate smooths out. how the hell can that guy be so nonchalant? and the deck tilts a little more. tinkling sounds of wrenches shifting in their drawer. the crash of the watch's coffee cup hitting the deck, because he forgot to put it in the cup holder. a leveling out. the skipper comes on the speakers, giving us his obligatory pep talk about the upcoming mission, and how we are going to be blah blah blah. ever see the Peanut's television shows? where charlie brown and gang can all converse between themselves and the audience understands, but when an adult speaks, it's whawhawhawhawha, incomprehensible to the audience? that's the ships PA system for a while, until you get so used to hearing announcements that you no longer look to see if someone else heard it, so you can ask WTF was just said. it didn't matter if the skipper had been standing right next to me though. i wouldn't have heard him. i was listening for the sounds of rushing water so intently i could hear the blood rushing around inside my body.

after a while, i noticed that that i was the only one staring down into the bilge area. well, me and the other new guy. the salts were all looking in the overhead for leaks. that didn't make any sense to me. hell, everyone knew that if you had a leak, you would see it in the bilges. not quite. submarine hulls are curved, and if we had a bad leak, the first place you would probably see it would be in the overhead, not the bilge. once i learned that, it was easy to see if a new guy had ever been to sea on a submarine. if he looked into the bilges on the dive, he was a newbie, regardless of his rank or rate.

as we leveled off, the lack of motion struck me. here we'd been on the surface rocking and rolling, and yet, after diving the boat, the deck was as steady as a sidewalk. ok, a sidewalk in earthquake land, but still, markedly different than on the surface. and quiet. until the sound of the boat cutting through the water while surfaced is gone, you don't notice just how noisy the waves and wake were. once you dove the boat, your universe was defined by a pipe stuffed with rotating machinery and pipes, valves and switchboards, motors and wiring. nothing was really noisy. the deck vibrated with a hum in sync with the gear next to it. i felt light, light enough to float if i didn't grab something to hold on to. my blood was effervescent, the skin tingling as i tried to keep the hair on my arms from standing so straight it would pull itself out of the roots. i was hyperventillating. nothing dramatic, no gasping for air bent over trying to keep from passing out hyperventillating. i was breathing fast from elation, not fear. i was here! i was on a united states by god damned friggin' submarine, and i was UNDERWATER and UNDERWAY.

this wasn't just the culmination of two years of navy schools. this was the realization of a dream i'd had since i was a young teenager. when i was asked what academic series i wanted to take going into high school, i told the councilor "whatever i need to do to be a nuclear submariner". this was it! i was really really on a submarine. i had done it. man, i remember that day like it was yesterday. i remember the stark terror and pure elation. i remember the wonderment of actually punching holes in the ocean from inside that boat. i remember the way all the skin on my body tightened and tingled, how the noise went from a standard engineroom to quiet, and back to a standard engineroom, as if someone had taken my ears' volume control knob and cycled it between 10 and 1 and back to 10. i remember the pride i felt at finally achieving this goal i'd been striving towards for at least 7 years. for a 20 year old, that was over a third of my life i'd been working for and looking forward to this day.

i never lost the thrill of the dive. after the first one, i lost the fear, but never the thrill. there was nothing mundane about diving a submarine below the surface of the ocean.

8 Comments:

Anonymous rkcoker@comcast.net said...

Absolutely correct, sir! But the part about being so full of myself, that is so right, too. You couldn't tell me $&!*. I had the world by the tail and I knew it. It took a while but my crewmates finally got my head out of my @$$. I was in GEEK heaven.

What's amazing now is that I can look at a complicated piece of 'chinary and am able to identify what does what at a glance. All that sub training didn't go to waste yet. Oh by the way, I was a nuke ET. Thats been 35 years ago now. Some things still seem so fresh.

5/1/05, 3:30 PM  
Blogger Lubber's Line said...

Great post, captures the range emotions and experiences most of us bubbleheads felt on the first dive. A sense of wonderment at technology and crew efficiency mixed with the fear of not knowing what to really expect followed by the anticlimax quite and calm once underway submerged.

I was a NavET boomer type so my training pipeline was about 6 months shorter than a nuke, but I remember working so hard in my A and C schools that I would wake up at night doing the basic electronics math problems in my head. Don’t know if I was having nightmares, dreaming or just very focused at the time.

A year and a half after my first dive I was the one doing the forward compartment upper level Rig for Dive. Sweated bullets on my first Rig for Dive, not that I wasn’t confident in the job I did, just the additional responsibility. Lots early diesel boats flooded due to bad snorkel valves and ventilate lineups.

I find it hard to relate my experiences in the Navy and on Subs sometimes to the uninitiated, good job on this one.

5/1/05, 8:23 PM  
Blogger edieraye said...

Mine was a shore dive off of the El Presidente hotel in Cozumel - oh wait! - wrong kind of dive.

Great post.

5/1/05, 8:37 PM  
Blogger bothenook said...

remind me to write about the first time i was at snorkle depth breathing compressed air in hanama bay hawaii. there is another first i'll never forget.

5/1/05, 9:07 PM  
Blogger Skippy-san said...

So gettin my first dive "inside" the el presidente hotel in Cozumel probably does not count...oh wait this is about submarine diving not "m*** diving.

Actualy, I have vivid memories of "angles and dangles as a midshipman on USS Skipjack in 1977.

My best subamrine memory ( remember, I was an aviator..was being the operative word)...was Sunday breakfast on a diesel sub in Ballast Point. Best breakfast I think I have ever had.

5/2/05, 5:54 AM  
Blogger WillyShake said...

First dive? Sure, I was head-down *ss up (if you'll pardon the mental image) over the floating wire spool which was stowed behind the BCP. I had to verify the rig for all the MF-ing little valves of the BCP--and lemme tell you, the spool took up most of the space and I had to squeeze in...hell, I probably still have a scar on my head somewhere from when that spool would rock back n forth from the wave action--sending my noggin slamming into all those sharp little valve handels.

Want some cheese with my whine? LOL.

No, but seriously, you are absolutely correct about the thrill of the actual dive itself!

5/2/05, 2:34 PM  
Blogger edieraye said...

I want to hear about Hanama Bay!

5/3/05, 3:58 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't remember my first dive. All I remember was that it was inside the three mile limit just out of Apra Harbor in Guam. Made it easier to shake the AGI.

5/5/05, 6:00 AM  

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